Current mood:	lazy
Current music:	mtv

my poor neglected journal
so basically i've just been to lazy to update. I've been home for about a week and a half now. Its nice, my mom spoils me. Real food is my favorite, i don't know how i lived on what i ate before. My sister just left a couple days ago..i miss her already. She brought my new boyfriend home with her..Henry!! Henry is the best, he's cute, he cuddles, and he likes when i scratch his butt haha. He's a guinea pig, the best pet ever. Well, the best pet this family has seen. Christmas was amazing. One of my favorite of all time. It was all about family and being together, what christmas should be. I got a lot of presents, i wasn't expecting it all. I can't wait to put my new digital camera to use. You guys still need to send me pics from our night out! haha that was fun, we need to get together again before everyone goes back to school. I hung out with dawn today, it was fun, i miss her so much. We always have a good time together, and i made her watch like 10 episodes of rich girls, and my mom made us turkey..yum. Hm what else? I hung out with david a few times. I don't think we will be talking much anymore. He's clearly not ready for a friendship, its hard for both of us. Imagine having to see how much you hurt this nice person and the effect your actions have, its not fun. He's still in love with me which makes it all the more impossible. Who knows where we will end up, but he is a nice boy, even if i want to kill him sometimes. I've been talking to sean a lot. Its nice to reminecse about things. I always wonder if i'll find someone else i loved as much as him, or someone that i have that connection with. Everyone so far as failed to match up, or maybe i just expect too much..who knows. I'll keep looking.

I feel like shit right now. I hope i feel better for tommorow. I'm excited about getting dressed up. Cute clothers, alcohol, friends, what more do ya need? I decided my new love is high heels and jeans. I'm addicted. I just watched the final episode of rich girls with my mom...i love that show. Theres not much else going on. I just sit around all day, watch some tv, and sleep. Its very relaxing, i don't even want to think about how stressed i'll be when school starts. I better enjoy it while i can.